computer is seriously ill

Just a quick hello to give you all an update.

My computer is very very ill. it is infact terminal and will soon be going to pc heaven. I'm very sad about this as if it wasn't for my pc i wouldn't of made lots of new friends, Jeannette, sarajane, Ally and Joan, here in the UK, and Joyce my lovely friend in the US. (if i have forgotten to put someone special i'm sorry but it is near impossible to read anything on the monitir due to the pc's illness, but you know i love you too!!)

There is a happy ending though! Good old dad has lent me the money for a new pc!! I have got it from good old ebay and it will be soooo much better than this one and faster and better and faster and i'm loosing control from the excitement! LOL.

So if i don't comment on your journals or reply to emails I am still about and nothing is wrong so please don't worry. I will be back in action very very soon!

The kids are all fine, Charlie is back to his old self and Bethany and Bryce are wonderful also.

Who'd like an update on my lovely new man???????? We are in love! He has totally bowled me over! He's taken me on a night out...brought me flowers...twice! I have even been and met his mum and dad and had a lovely dinner with them on friday night! Bryce came with me. It was really good, although i felt sooooo sick when we got there. i felt even sicker when dear bryce swang on the carpets and pulled the handle off a unit! It was ok and they were cool about it...thank god for that. So all i can say is it's looking good! I'm off to do a valantines shop in a little while, something i haven't done in ages!

My life is so good at the moment and i honestly can never ever remember feeling like this...lets hope its not the calm before the storm!!

Love you all to bits.

Joanne

grhhhhhhhhhhhh

Well happy thursday to all my good friends and anyone else who is having a nose at my journal!

Charlie is loads better, i know this because he has started arguing with me again and had started to bounce of the walls again as usual, He is calm today though as i have put him back on his adhd medication as of this morning. Hasn't needed it all week as was flat out on the sofa for 4 days and just quiet for another 2.

Would you believe Bethany came home from 2 nights respite with half a tooth in an envelope. the other bit is still in her mouth. We went to the doctors first thing this morning but he couldn't do anything till later as she has a little heart problem so needs a dose of antibiotics before any dental treatment as if she gets an infection after any work it could lead to an infection around her heart. So we are back to the dentist at 5 to have the tooth removed. So please please please keep us in your thoughts at 5pm. She has always been put to sleep in the past to have any sort of dental work done but today is going to be staying awake so god only knows how she is going to react. mum is coming with me so we can both sit on her if needed!!! The poor dentist had a look of  horror on his face when he realised whay had to be done...i don't know who will be more scared!

I'm planning on taking some pictures of the kids in the next few days and will put them up for you when they are all done. They have all grown so much recently.

I have some news to tell you.....I have now myself an absolutely lovely man!!!!! He is very kind and we are besotted with each other. I didn't tell anyone before incase we didn't get on, but so far so good! He was absolutely terrific Friday night when Charlie was rushed into hospital. He followed the ambulance and stayed with me at the emergency room till we knew what was going to happen. He then brought me home to get my stuff and came to see if i was ok at the hospital on saturday when charlie was still in. Then he came round saturday night to keep me company as i was scared to be on my own with charlie so ill. So you had all better start saving for your hats as it is all a bit of a whirlwind at the moment!!!!! I feel like a teenager!!!! lol. I will keep you updated!

Take care everyone and have a lovely day!

LOVE AND HUGS

JOANNE

update on charlie

Good morning everyone

Just wanted to let all my friends know how Charlie is doing. He had a very peacefull night and seemed to sleep soundly. I on the other hand was up most of the night listening to him and poking him every so often to make sure he was improving. He was very hot about 9pm last night and had a temp of 40.3 so i was undecided as to wether i should ring for help but decided that maybe just keeping an eye on him would be better. Think he had to get worse before he got better to be honest. It didn't help that when he had all his medication last night that he was sick.

Anyway, His fever has now broken, he's eaten some icecream and has started to drink a little so the signs are all good at the moment.

Have decided that school is a definite no no till next monday as i want him here with me where i can keep my eye on him. School is also in for a mouthfull as he says he told them how ill he felt during the day on thursday and they told him that he would be ok...how wrong were they! If my kids are ill I want to know ASAP!

Haven't had anymore fighting for his breath so the steroids are still in the bottle, lets hope it stays that way!

I am in the process of cooking a lovely roast and so my house smells lovely, i'm hoping he will eat a little for me later.

I'll speak to you all very very soon and thatnks for all your lovely messages to my dear charlie....i so almost lost him on friday...he even told me he thought he was going to die....best to not think about it i think or it will drive me insane.

Love you all lots

JOANNE

p.s... my mum has been a rock this past few days and has helped me no end. THANKS MUMMY I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.

 

charlie

hello my good friends.

just a quick entry. my charlie was rushed by ambulance last night to hospital. he was having real trouble breathing and when he started to go a funny colour i phoned 999. i had spoken to our gp earlier in the day and was told to see how he was and take him down to be seen monday if no better....my god are they gonna get a kick up the arse first thing monday morning.

charlie has got an infection in his throat near the vocal cords and viral croup which is why he was having problems due to his throat swelling. he is on the mend and will be ok. is on antibiotics and i have a dose of steroids in case it happens again.

they done a chest xray last night and there were bits on his lungs...dr thinks this is a bit of croup.

i'm now a nervous wreck! had a lot of support from my friend last night (you know who i mean joyce) so that was lovely.

will keep you updated

love you all

JOANNE

happy birthday nanny...gone but not forgotten.

 

sorry

sorry sorry sorry sorry

I have been a very bad journaler! Haven't posted in ages. can't appologise to you all enough! Me and xmas just don't get on well i'm afraid. Makes me all depressed and lonely. I know I have my babies but sometimes i miss adult company at this time of year.

I'll even admit to you all that i shed a tear at midnight...silly i know!

I have decided that i am going to concentrate on the next 12 months positivly. No more looking back at all the rotten things that haunt me...but at all the nice things i have...my babies, my family and my friend Clare!

so here goes.......Happy Christmas

Happy new year.

My resolution is to post at least once a week. If it looks like i'm not keeping to this please send me an email to remind me!

See you all soon. Love you all lots and lots!!

Joanne

ps i have been reading all your journals...they have kept me going!!

xXx

THANKS YOU'S

GOOD EVENING TO YOU ALL.

I WANTED TO JUST STOP BY QUICKLY AND THANK YOU ALL FOR THE LOVELY COMMENTS THAT YOU ADDED FROM MY ENTRY YESTERDAY! IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME WHAT YOU ALL PUT.

I DIDN'T DO MUCH TODAY. WENT TO IPSWICH FOR A NOSE AROUND THE SHOPS....WAS REALLY GOOD AND ONLY SPENT 10 POUNDS! MANAGED TO AVOID ALL THE SHOPS THAT I NORMALLY SPEND A FORTUNE IN SO WAS QUITE PLEASED WITH MYSELF!

I'M OFF TO VISIT CLARE TOMORROW FOR THE DAY. WE HAVEN'T SEEN MUCH OF EACHOTHER RECENTLY DUE TO ALL THE SICKNESS SO WE HAVE A LOT OF CATCHING UP TO DO!

I HAVE FINISHED MY XMAS SHOPPING....I THINK! I HAVE A NASTY THOUGHT THAT I HAVE FORGOTTEN SOMEBODY IMPORTANT! I CAN'T FOR THE LIFE OF ME THINK WHO IT IS THOUGH......THATS WHY I'VE FORGOTTEN OBVIOUSLY.

ANYWAY I SEEM TO BE RAMBLING SO IT MUST BE TIME FOR ME TO GO AND GET MY BEAUTY SLEEP......THAT WILL TAKE LOADS OF SLEEP TO ACHEIVE BELIEVE ME!

TAKE CARE ALL MY LOVELY JOURNAL FRIENDS.

JOANNE

PS I HAVE A MASSIVE BAR OF DARK CHOCOLATE TO EAT IN BED TONIGHT!!

 

hello's

A big hello to all my journal buddies!

I must start this entry by appologising for not making an entry in a long time. It had been manic here just lately, with lots of hospital appointments and things going on in general.

Bethany managed to bring a sickness bug home! She was sick Monday morning...baby had it by the afternoon, and Charlie and myself had it all day Wednesday. At least is all over with before the xmas fun starts!

Bryce had an eye check up a couple of weeks ago...they took special photos of his eyes with a machine. Would you believe he cannot focus in one of his eye's! He can see nothing, just colours and light and dark! I told them when he was small i thought there was a problem...i was right....AGAIN!!! We were meant to go to the hospital on Wednesday but had to cancel due to us being ill so have to wait now for another slot. Thank god the other eye seems to be ok. He will need glasses for definate and possibly an operation at some point.

I have excellent news for you all! I had to have a bowel biopsy a couple of weeks ago. I got the results Friday......CLEAR!!!! You cannot believe how worried I have been. Got to go back for a review in 3 months and to the gp as i need medication, but the worry of having cancer has now gone and i can live with the medication! I think this is part of the reason for not doing an entry....i have been on the point of a breakdown due to the worry of what would happen if i didn't get the result I wanted...kept thinking about my babies and what would happen if they did find something nasty. I now have to concentrate on getting my house shipshape for xmas and get back to normal again.

I promise i have been reading all your journals on a daily basis....they have kept me going!!!

I will be back in the week as i will have news for you about bet-bet's cardiac check-up. She was a star this week when we went for the ECG and X-Ray....i was so proud of her! We see the specialist on Thursday so please all of you who pray or talk to god, have a little word with him for me!!

Take care all of you.........I love you all loads and loads!!

Hugs and happy thoughts