Bethany is back

She has taken herself upstairs in her room

she never does this

think she is upset at everything thats going on at the link family, although she doesn't understand any of it.

grandma has been given 36 hours

feeling so sad for link family

advice

good band holiday monday to all in the U.K and a happy memorial day to friends in the U.S

i could really do with some advice from all my good friends.

As you all know Bethany has a link family  who has been having her for the past 8 years. She has adopted the granny as her own grandma. unfortunately grandma is very ill with cancer. I am at a loss as to how to explain the subject of death with Bethany. I do have to tell her, its not fair on her or the link family not to, but i'm at a complete loss as to how i should go about it.

I myself do not cope with death at all....the last person who died, my nanna, was the most terrible time of my life, it caused me to have a breakdown big time, and for a while i really was in a bad way. since my nanna died i have been even worse when it comes to dieing. i have spent all weekend upset about the "grandma" and felt so bad yesterday when i dropped bethany off as i cried like a baby....not good....and not helpful to the link family.

Have got a lump in my throat now.

So if any of you have any good advice please shanre it with me. thanks

I am really behind on my journal comments so i appologise for that, my dad is laying a nice new floor for me in the kitchen/diner so i have been helping him.

well done to Jan for her featured journal!!!!!

hugs for Joyce in the U.S. hope you son is getting a bit better.

Be strong to sara and Jelly...purple is a cool colour!

hello Daz!!!!!!! ( your famous now mate!)

love you all lots and lots

JOANNE

just in case

have put this on incase alerts didn't go out first time properly

suprise!!!!

Hello to all my good friends

I hope you have all had a really good weekend

I have had a really REALLY good weekend

i have got a massive surprise for you.......................

Its given me an excited feeling in my tummy...............

its made me smile........................

you must all think i'm crazy!

i bet you are wondering exactly what it is i'm going to tell you..............

SHANE AND I GOT ENGAGED ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its so exciting

i've got a lovely ring!

http://www.argos.co.uk/static/Product/partNumber/2299259/Trail/C%24cip%3D35755.Jewellery%2Band%2Bwatches%3EC%24cip%3D35791.Rings%3EC%24cip%3D35793.Ladies%26%2339%3B%2Brings.htm

this is the link if you would like to see it.

you will all have to start saving for your hats! lol

love you all lots and lots

have a lovely monday

Joanne

xxXxx

BETHANY

12TH MAY 1994 WAS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE...........MY DAUGHTER BETHANY WAS BORN

13TH MAY 1994 WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE........WE FOUND OUT SHE HAD DOWNS SYNDROME.

STILL DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT ALL.....................

FEEL SAD

FEEL HAPPY AS SHE IS HAPPY AND SO VERY EXCITED ABOUT BEING 12.

AM VERY CONFUSED, ( HENSE NO JOURNAL INPUT IN AGES, SORRY EVERYONE)

BETHANY HAVING A BIRTHDAY DINNER LATER AT NANDO'S CHICKEN RESTURANT.

HAVE TO GO GET HER READY FOR SCHOOL AND MAKE BREAKFAST

DON'T ANY OF YOU FORGET HOW MUCH I LOVE ALL OF YOU!

LOVE AND HUGS ALWAYS

JOANNE

ohhh i'm so excited Charlie will be back at 3:30!!! He sounded so happy on the phone yesterday....i feel sorry for him having to come home again. Bethany is in a rotten mood and i know she will be nasty to him. love you all.....JOANNE

boo hoo i'm all alone....for a change!

hi everyone

just wanted to let you all know that charlie got away ok on his holiday....and yes i did cry! I managed to wait till the bus had gone though.....all my mum kept saying was to take deep breaths!

i spoke to him briefly on the phone earlier and he sounded so excited. had already been doing archery and was off tonight on a scrapheap challenge! He said he was in a roon with 3 bunk bed's so hopefully none of the other boys snore....although he has had lots of broken nights the last few days due to Bryce's chickenpox, so a bit of snoring probably wont disturb him at all. charlie has only ever been to stay away at my mums before so it feels really strange that he is away in norfolk having to really look after himself. I hope he changes his pants and sock's! lol.  the last things he said to me was i love you mummy and i promise i will be good! i'm sure he will try as i did explain to him that if he did act silly it would look bad on me!

Bryce's spots are look ing a little better now so hopefully we are over the worst and maybe he will manage to sleep for a complete night tonight. I am to be honest completely wiped out through lack of sleep and with the children being on easter holidays my days have been anything but quiet, so i am going to try and have a little bit of as rest while i can!

Shane hasn't come to see me tonight as he has got his daughters so i am completely alone (apart from the other 2 who are sleeping) so i expect i will be going to bed tonight sooner rather than later!

will post again on thursday evening when charlie comes home to tell you all about his adventures!

love you all lots and lots

JOANNE