i just wanted to say thanks to ALL of you who left me a comment from the entry i wrote yesterday.

I really thought I wouldnt get any! But i'm so glad i did....made me feel all warm and happy.

also wanted to point out that the reason we have a social worker isnt because i have ever done anything wrong in the past. As Bet-Bet goes into respite care for 2 nights a month she is classed as a "looked after child" so therefore we have a social worker as they are the ones who arranged the respite care.

We all have colds here today, apart from Charlie Boy. he was 11 a couple of weeks ago and my baby was 3 last week!!!! He will be "the baby" when he is 20 lol.

its been a really busy couple of weeks here. had charlies birthday, bryce's birthday, clares birthday, mum and dads ruby wedding party this saturday and mothering sunday. no wonder i have no money!!!

mum decided at the weekend that we will be going on holiday again this year to the isle of wight. we had a lovely time last year, it was so hot! we are going in may this year as bethany really doesnt do heat lol. so if any of you know of some good places to visit let me know.

i have just remembered i have good news! Bethany doesnt need a hearing aid anymore! YAY! i cried so much, from happiness. they think its helped having her tonsils out with the hearing.

I will be off now as we have doctors shortly for bethany and bryce as they both have bad chests, colds are lethal in this house. can you remember charlies high speed ambulance ride last year from not being able to breathe? that started as a cold. bethany has had pneumonia twice from a cold. bryce gets a bad chest from them as do I. i am lucky that my doctor understands all this and he will give us antibiotis hopefully as we have to be well for the ruby wedding party on saturday. can you believe 40 years.....seems like a life sentance to me!!

love you all lots

Joanne

ok i am back!

i have lots to tell you

firstly i want to say this. Jeannette I have been thinking about you all weekend. you are a survivour. my thoughts will be with you all the time.

ok heres whats been happening

wedding off

had a breakdown...again...not the car my brain.

am getting better....i think

have had a lot of trouble from social services.....thats whats made me ill.....social worker has now said she should never of said to me what she did. was accused of neglecting my beautiful daughter. as you all know my life is devoted to all my kids, and i just couldnt undrstand what she was trying to say, as its a load of rubbish. every proffessional person involved with my daughter has promised me i have done nothing wrong. the social worker is very young, new to her job, and new to England (she is romanian) and we have come to the conclusion that she was trying to make a good impression. done that alright. cant stop appologising to me now as she can see she has hurt me more than anything else ever before in my life

had my appointment on friday for the lump in my mouth. they think it is a polyp, so it has to be removed as could become cancerous. am not going to worry about it.

have been reading your journal religiously they have kept me from really cracking up some days

hope you all have had a good weekend

love

Joanne

Appologies for lack of entries, not been having a very easy time here just lately.....kids are ok dont worry, its more me.

A question for you all

If you have taken out a bank loan, could it be possible for them to ring you out of the blue to ask you if you want a different interest rate?

I know its a silly question, and as i have never had a bank loan before i cannot answer it.

You would be doing me a massive favour if you know the answer.

love you all lots and lots

Joanne

 

ok I have something to share with you...it might be something or nothing.

I have a lump

it is in my mouth

I have seen the dentist and was straight away refered to the hospital as it has been there for at least a month and seems to be growing still

It doesnt hurt

I asked the dentist was it a nasty, he said he needed it to be checked, and that they will have to cut it out.

about an hour after i left the hospital rang....have never heard from them that quick before after a referal...so it spooked me a bit.

I promise i am trying to not worry about it...but its hard not to!

I will keep you up to date with what happens.

aparrently another woman has been missing in Ipswich for over a week now. that brings it to 3 dead and 2 missing...terrible, really terrible.

i need to buy new dinner plates...I had 6 now have 2. one has dissapeared from the house, have no idea at all where it is. bryce broke one...he was trying to help tidy up, charlie broke the other. we have to eat in shifts lol

this is going to be such a busy week. am going out for a christmas dinner tomorrow with weightwatchers. have Bethany's carol service on Wednesday. bryce's first nativity on thursday morning....he is a shepherd. charlies school concert on thursday afternoon......he is a shepherd lol they will be wanting a sheep. A meeting with social services thursday afternoon. bryce has his playschool party friday morning. Bethany has the mencap party on saturday. have you managed to keep up!!!!????!!!!

I'm off now to play a game on my pc....i am a games geek....you didnt know that did you.

love you all to bits

folow on to last entry..................

It was just announced on the news that a 4th girl has now been reported missing in ipswich.

Please god let her be safe, this is just terrible, especially at this time of year.

I'm off to watch a live news conference about it all on sky news.

This is all a bit too close to home for my liking and is really freaking me out big time......mum said i was silly as its only been prostitutes that have been murdered and i shouldnt worry....doesnt make me feel any better as i'm mostly on my own in the house at night.

please pray for these women

murders

i have just woken to find that there has been another murder.

this one is only 5 miles from where i live. that makes 3 in ipswich now. i am terrified i have to be honest.

i wish they could find who had done these terrible things.

A family is at the dinner table. The son asks his father, "Dad, how many kinds of boobs are there? The father, surprised, answers, "Well, son, there are three kinds of breasts.
In her 20s, a woman's breasts are like melons, round and firm.
In her 30s to 40s, they are like pears, still nice but hanging a bit.
After 50, they are like onions".
"Onions?"
"Yes, you see them and they make you cry."
This infuriated his wife and daughter so the daughter said, "Mum, how many kinds of 'willies' are there?"
The mother, surprised, smiles and answers, "Well dear, a man goes through three phases.
In his 20s, his willy is like an oak tree, mighty and hard.
In his 30s and 40s, it is like a birch, flexible but reliable.
After his 50s, it is like a Christmas tree".
"A Christmas tree?"
"Yes - dead from the root up and the balls are just for decoration."

 

appologies for not being round much lately folks......i dont cope too well this time of year.....sorry!

love you all more than u know

joanne