bethany

i told you on my last entry that I had news.....

i'm not going to tell you about that now today as i have BIGGER news.

(sorry fella's that read this is a female thing so click the red x now if you dont want to read)

 

 

Bethany started her periods today.

I am devistated. on her last hospital visit we discussed (for a whole 2 minutes) about this happening. i was told that they could stop her from having this every month, but if they start there was nothing that could be done. so now there is nothing that can be done as they are rubbish at giving you help.

I have tried to explain about this to her. all she can say is that her boobys hurt. she keeps asking for me to get a doctor.

She will have a birthday next weekend and will be 13. had a letter from school yesterday to say that she has seen a speech therapist and has the understanding of a 4 year old! i'm am stuck as to how you would explain about such stuff to someone who is 4.

so now i have something else to worry about.....sigh.....tears.....sigh.

would i of felt like this is Bethany wasn't like she is???

love you all anyway so that makes it a bit better.

woo hoo sara!

love

Joanne

i am back.....for good! or until the pc decides it doesnt love me anymore lol.

have been planting in the garden....tomato's, courgettes and peppers. dont hold your breath i will manage to kill them, although this is my first attempt at veggies!

i always manage to kill houseplants lol

I havent really been up to much just the everyday normal stuff.

have got a piece of important stuff to tell you but will post it in the week!

love you all

happy sundays

Joanne

still about!!

i'm still here as some of you know! Shane hasnt yet come to get his pc, so am using it still as much as possible. several things have happened since i was here.

all accusations made by social sevices have been proven to be untrue...you all knew that though. they have made a request to the variety club for money to build me a conservatory....do you think it is maybe an act of guilt? i do! but hell if they want to build me one they can... although it will never make up for what they have done to me.

bryce was rushed to hospital at 2am last thursday morning as he couldnt breathe properly. the emergency services were brilliant. rapid response was almost breaking down my door within 5 minutes of nhs direct calling them, the paramedics arrived 2 minutes after that. when we got to the hospital i was a nervous wreck, bryce on the other hand thought it was a hoot too see all the flasing light...thats how bad he was. he had a pulse of 189 and blood oxygen of only 91%. they couldnt hear any noise on his chest but after having an xray they found a big black patch at the bottom of his left lung...he had pneumonia...a seconday thing to the chest infection he had a few weeks back. we came home at 2pm the next day. he is back to my happy cheeky 3 year old already. he will be starting playgroup for 5 sessions a week as of monday coming up. i must stop calling him baby bryce!

bethany was sick on saturday, charlie has it today, bryce will have it tomorrow lol.....hope i dont get it! 

I want to wish Jeannette a speedy recovery from her operation. you have been so brave Jeannette.

now i have to tell you Joyce, I am so very sorry about your mother. it must be a dreadful time for you, and a terrible shock. I dont know how you are coping. DH will see you through it all i'm sure. I'm sending you lots of love and hugs. i think of you often.

Joan...........have you got a doctors appointment yet? i'll be after you!!!!!!

sara...are you ready for the jelly to go back to school!!!! i will be round for a cake.

Stuart............hope millie smells a little better tonight.

Jan and Ally i love you both.

I hope i havent missed anyone out?? appologies if i have

anyway....i must be off as charlie is about to start honking up again...he has gone a funny green colour!

love you all so much, but you all know that already....well i hope you do!

love always

Joanne

ps i'm sure there is something that i have forgotten to say......................................

just wanted to say goodbye.

shane is moving his stuff out tonight or tommorow so that means the pc is going.

i will be back eventually when i get my pc mended.

i love you all so much and will miss you loads.

i will think about you all the time.

i'll send you all an email with my address so if you want we can keep in touch by letter, let me know in the comment section if you want it.

ok i'm going now as i'm crying

love always

joanne

i'll never EVER forget any of you.

Ever think about it? A lot of non-living objects are actually either male or female.   Some examples: FREEZER BAGS: They are male, because they hold everything in, but you can see right through them. PHOTOCOPIERS: These are female, because once turned off, it takes a while to warm them up again. They are an effective reproductive device if the right buttons are pushed, but can also wreak havoc if you push the wrong buttons. TYRES: Tires are male, because they go bald easily and are often over inflated. HOT AIR BALLOONS: Also a male object, because to get them to go anywhere, you have to light a fire under their arse     SPONGES: These are female, because they are soft, squeezable and retain water.   WEB PAGES: Female, because they're constantly being looked at and frequently getting hit on.     TRAINS: Definitely male, because they always use the same old lines for picking up people.     EGG TIMERS: Egg timers are female because, over time, all the weight shifts to the bottom.   HAMMERS: Male, because in the last 5000 years, they've hardly changed at all, and are occasionally handy to have around.   THE REMOTE CONTROL: Female. Ha! You probably thought it would be male, but consider this: It easily gives a man pleasure, he'd be lost without it, and while he doesn't always know which buttons to push, he just keeps trying

i just wanted to say thanks to ALL of you who left me a comment from the entry i wrote yesterday.

I really thought I wouldnt get any! But i'm so glad i did....made me feel all warm and happy.

also wanted to point out that the reason we have a social worker isnt because i have ever done anything wrong in the past. As Bet-Bet goes into respite care for 2 nights a month she is classed as a "looked after child" so therefore we have a social worker as they are the ones who arranged the respite care.

We all have colds here today, apart from Charlie Boy. he was 11 a couple of weeks ago and my baby was 3 last week!!!! He will be "the baby" when he is 20 lol.

its been a really busy couple of weeks here. had charlies birthday, bryce's birthday, clares birthday, mum and dads ruby wedding party this saturday and mothering sunday. no wonder i have no money!!!

mum decided at the weekend that we will be going on holiday again this year to the isle of wight. we had a lovely time last year, it was so hot! we are going in may this year as bethany really doesnt do heat lol. so if any of you know of some good places to visit let me know.

i have just remembered i have good news! Bethany doesnt need a hearing aid anymore! YAY! i cried so much, from happiness. they think its helped having her tonsils out with the hearing.

I will be off now as we have doctors shortly for bethany and bryce as they both have bad chests, colds are lethal in this house. can you remember charlies high speed ambulance ride last year from not being able to breathe? that started as a cold. bethany has had pneumonia twice from a cold. bryce gets a bad chest from them as do I. i am lucky that my doctor understands all this and he will give us antibiotis hopefully as we have to be well for the ruby wedding party on saturday. can you believe 40 years.....seems like a life sentance to me!!

love you all lots

Joanne

ok i am back!

i have lots to tell you

firstly i want to say this. Jeannette I have been thinking about you all weekend. you are a survivour. my thoughts will be with you all the time.

ok heres whats been happening

wedding off

had a breakdown...again...not the car my brain.

am getting better....i think

have had a lot of trouble from social services.....thats whats made me ill.....social worker has now said she should never of said to me what she did. was accused of neglecting my beautiful daughter. as you all know my life is devoted to all my kids, and i just couldnt undrstand what she was trying to say, as its a load of rubbish. every proffessional person involved with my daughter has promised me i have done nothing wrong. the social worker is very young, new to her job, and new to England (she is romanian) and we have come to the conclusion that she was trying to make a good impression. done that alright. cant stop appologising to me now as she can see she has hurt me more than anything else ever before in my life

had my appointment on friday for the lump in my mouth. they think it is a polyp, so it has to be removed as could become cancerous. am not going to worry about it.

have been reading your journal religiously they have kept me from really cracking up some days

hope you all have had a good weekend

love

Joanne