I have several things to tell you today, so please bear with me.

bethany has her date to go and have her tonsils out, 2nd november. 3 weeks today. 21 days. 504 hours. 20240 minutes........do i seem nervous....i am trying to breath deeply!! I totally hate it when she has something done in hospital. to date she has been put to sleep 8 times, and no it doesnt get easier. mum is coming to look after me while i try to look after Bethany.

have been to look around Charlies high school for next year. it looks fab, i just hope they let him go. will go look around the school of bullies monday night just incase i dont get him where i want him to go. I was blown away by all the stuff at the school. it is so different to when i went 20 years ago, but seemed the same. there is a corridor in the school that i used to be soooo scared to walk down, it still scared me today, although not quite as much. must make a mental note to not tell charlie about the scary corridor! they had so much state of the art stuff there. he will love it i am sure. they have a special needs lady who i am going to go and see nearer the time of him starting.

I have a new mother lol.

you all know her.....Jan aka serendipidy. She is so lovely to me...you all are. you are like my second family. stuart is dad, jan is mum, jeannette, ally, joyce, jackie and joan you are my aunty's. sara and lise jo my sisters. if anyone else would like to adopt me just let me know!! could do with a nanny and grandad, and maybe an uncle!!

managed to lose 1 1/2lbs this week so lost what i gained last week so hopefully will be back on track.

Bryce is lovely

charlie came home from school yesterday....can i have £160 to go on a school trip mum....try saying please son you may find it works!! lol

i am now off to raid my cupboards for food, wont find anything in them though lol so will have to have a fag instead!

love you all

Joanne